Busy Bee

If anyone has tried to ever make plans with me you often here this answer "Oh I think I have __________ to do this day" or "Oh I think I have a sunday afternoon available next month oh wait I don't how about September?" I am constantly busy.  I have been so busy that I haven't been able to write a blog in about two weeks.  Which also means that I haven't been able to dedicate the proper amount of time to working out.  I have stalled out at 45lbs lost.  I keep flip flopping between 239lbs and 237lbs and I am frustrated.  Very frustrated.  I have to make time for me even if there is so much going on around me.  There has to be 30 to 60 minutes out of my day to dedicate to me.  There just has to be.  This is how I got so big in the first place.  I didn't allow myself the time to do things for just me. 
     I guess getting healthy means getting selfish and saying the word "NO"  Its a dirty word but I have to start using it.  I don't need to use the phrase "No, sorry..." It just has to be "NO!" I can't be sorry.  I can't apologize for wanting time for me.  It doesn't mean that I don't love everyone but I have to start loving myself a little bit more.  I want to be able to plan out my schedule around my healthy habits instead of trying to force them in.  It doesn't work that way.  I have to get back to planning out all my meals.  I have to get back to the Biggest Loser game.  I gotta get back to me!  I want to hit 50 pounds and go climb that mountain.  5 - 6 pounds and I am there!!!  I hope I am not the only one who feels like they can't fit getting healthy into their schedules. 

Contest 
I WON! I get to pick a dress from their fall collection and I need to let them know my size and my top three dresses.  If you haven't had a chance yet, the dresses are on my facebook.  I will post a blog about it tomorrow.  So excited.  Thank you to all of you who helped me win the contest.  I am truly blessed to have so many incredible people in my life.

Relay for life

We raised over 95,000 this year and I am so proud to be apart of something so amazing....

Last year

This year...

Random thoughts.

Last Thursday my facebook status read as followed:
I am wondering when this whole karma thing is going to start working in my favor?!?

Friday morning I woke up to find out that I am the finalist to win a gorgeous wedding dress.  I am sure all you know this by now from the flood of status and link updates on facebook. (However if you are just a random reader of my blog or have come across this for the first time go back to the last blog post and read all the details of the contest my sister entered me in to.)   I couldn't believe it when I got a million messages from my sister, Geraldine and others who get up at the ass crack of dawn, to inform me that I was one of the finalist.  My sister's letter was so beautiful and so heart felt I don't know why I was shocked that they picked me to be a finalist.  I guess its the Savioli in me to think we aren't this lucky.  We know that Melissa was a finalist in the wedding contest and that blew up in ALL our faces.  I am just nervous that this too isn't going to end well....I just wish it was Friday at 8pm NOW!

I guess what I realized out of this whole thing is that there are people who are always going to be there and those who show their true colors when things like this come up.  There are people that I never thought would repost the link but did and theres the ones that could care less.  My sister had friends from high school whom she hadn't seen since repost.  ALL of my bridesmaids reposted (as expected) but it was the fact that they each have reached our personally to as many people they could to help me win. My ex boyfriend's family reposted it!  I am overwhelmed by the responses and comments people have left too thats its really put aside the ones that haven't.    All the comments are so amazingly sweet and I almost feel like I don't deserve all this praise.  However, I am so grateful that people think so highly of Kevin and I.  We are truly blessed for you all in our life. 

Weight
So I haven't been as quick to post my weight over the last two weeks. I have had a complete lack of focus these couple of weeks and need a good kick in the ass to get back on track.  I got it today.  Three different people came up to me today and said "Wow you look fantastic"  I was reminded that I do look good and I need to keep looking good.  So I went to aqua size tonight.  Great class. I need a new goal to work towards instead of just dropping pounds.  The roadrace was great but now I feel like I am in need of something else.  Any ideas??

And if you haven't voted  http://wildfireapp.com/fb/127/contests/107417/voteable_entries/20764414?ogn=facebook